Music Makes Life More Exciting

Kiesza is amazing, I saw her last night at Irving Plaza, along with Betty Who. It reminded me of when I was in the hospital in January and would play Kiesza's song Hideaway (the song below) on repeat to keep my spirits up, because 1. I love dance and 2. I Love music with great beats. I later I started to listen to the rest of her album, but it is always so great to come across a song that can bring your spirits up no matter the circumstances. Music is a powerful thing. 

Below are some songs that have been keeping me going, from friends, family, and just searching, they all have awesome beats and videos. 

HAPPY CINCO DE MAYO 

My Own Theory of Health and Happiness

I recently saw the movie the Theory of Everything. One of the things that made me think why Stephan hawking has lived wayyy past the date that he first was told he would, was because he had a supportive and a loving family, I am not sure how much of the actual drama went on in real life, since it is a hollywood movie, but I know the struggle is real. But to have had kids, who he was able to see grow up, and experience the birth of new life and the joy and frustrations kids bring, is an amazing thing. And the other part was that he was and still is able to do what he loves to do despite what he has lost. 

I find this very real and relevant since I have found you can’t get better, while feeling sad or frustrated. It just doesn’t work that way. You must have the support and positive outlook, or at least a willingness to fight. My dad the other day in a kind of morbid, but realistic way, had seen me crying because I haven’t gotten back to my normal healthy self just yet, and gave it to me simply, “you either fight, or you give up and die,” and that is the truth. However morbid it might sounds, it is the truth for everyone whether they are sick or healthy. You either fight for what you want to do and go after something, or you just give in and disappear. Personally I agree to fight, I mean I have been doing it all my life, just now it’s a bit more intense, a few more treatments here and there, and forcing food is a necessity. 

A couple of weeks back I came upon this amazing human on social media named Caleigh, who is raising money for her double lung transplant through her Fight2Breathe campaign. She has an amazing positive outlook and really has uplifted me, since she is going through a whole other side to CF that I have never seen personally, and it is just amazing how she is doing it with her positive energy and fighting determination to stay strong for the transplant!! And her supportive loving family seems to right behind her, cheering her on through good and bad times. I also found her logo on her t-shirts and sweatshirts she is selling to be super cool, I bought one and put it on the minute it arrived. You should check her out on her Facebook and Instagram and donate to such a life changing cause, because breathing should be a thing that don't have to think about! 

But as I said the second part of why I think Stephan Hawking has lived so long, is he was and still is able to use his brain for equations and his genius thoughts, and that is the second piece to the puzzle as I have found, you must continue to pursue your dreams of careers or hobbies

because being always sick can get dull and boring as hell real quickly. For instance I am not just a girl with CF, I love to draw, dance, I love animals, I love houses, as well as window shopping for beautiful clothes, and I love to eat rice with red meat. But medical issues sometimes can blind you to what is also important to a person, health is obviously most important, but so is the happiness of living and enjoying life! 

The Fight2Breathe t-shirt logo, I think I might love it so much, cause I was born in 1990

One of my Oil Pastel drawings of my cousins dogs in the snow, I did it for Christmas and working on more currently. 

forget all the hate and confusion towards this video... I really love this song 

and the dancing is pretty great. 

"Rock Bottom is for Sissies"

Recently my health took another hit by getting Rhino Virus, which threw my whole body for a loop. My PFT's (Pulmonary Function tests) were the worst they have been in a long time or ever. It is pretty frightening to see a low percentage that is suppose to represent how you're breathing. It's like you have failed at life. I have always had pride in being able to bring my lung function back up. I don't like giving up. But this time, I actually felt a large struggle in the beginning, I mean I thought I felt a struggle before, but nothing compared to this, it dropped so fast and far. I had, had an appointment on 22nd and things weren't fabulous, meaning I wasn't back to my base line but I was feeling good and they had gone up since my last visit. And from the 22nd of December to the 6th of January my PFT's had gone from about 68% to 50%. And for those of you who don't really know much of what that actually means. A regular exacerbation I might go from 68% to 64% for that amount of time. I didn't even finish my Pulmonary Function Test, by second round (there is usually 3) the technician knew from my large efforts and massive amount of coughing that I would be coming in to the hospital. 

I am starting to feel better, slowly but surely. Last night I was reading one of Chelsea Handlers books, I have become obsessed with her books, because they make you laugh out loud, it's like watching a hilarious chick flick but in a book form and way better. Well anyway while reading one of her books, I came upon this quote, and I don't really care what she was referring to because after seeing this quote it I felt it was very real life and connected with me. 

“ Rock bottom is for sissies; I’ve hit rock bottom a dozen times. I’ve woken up next to a billy goat, for christ sake. You just don’t give up! ” 

~ Chelsea Handler My Horizontal Life: A collection of one night stands 

We all feel like we have hit rock bottom from time to time, from work, health, or a break up. sometimes you really don't think anyone can relate, granted Chelsea wasn't coughing her brains out, but it brought me comfort that others feel this way and of course made me laugh. I mean you might say obviously we all have our own shit we have to deal with, but from my perspective it is good to see others also have their own struggle while being real and honest.   

A little blast from the past song! : )

Hospitalizations Happen, Life Goes On!

As many of you may know I have Cystic Fibrosis. This year I have been really cruising along compared to the horrible health I had in 2013; when I was in San Fran and had 6 hospitalizations in 8 months. Recently, I have been feeling great, being able to take trips, see friends, started real estate school and I am now studying for the test. I was able to do all of these things because my health has been my first priority. I still have had my bumps in the road here and there with oral antibiotics and increased airway clearance treatments. But I have been able to live my life and do my daily routine without the hospital. 

But as I kept talking about how great I had been since my last flu related hospitalization in May (And knocking on wood every time) I ended up jinxing my self. I ended up in the hospital this past weekend being very dehydrated, exhausted, coughing a ton and with a fever. Luckily it has been a while so it wasn't a complete pain, but I still wasn't feeling my best, actually far from it, so of course the tears did occur. But one thing my body does seem to do well (knock on wood) is bouncing back quickly. I have been on intensive IV antibiotics for the past 3 days and as of yesterday afternoon I felt like I could leave this joint (the hospital) and never come back. But obviously that won't be happening. I am awaiting test results to see what antibiotic I will be leaving here on and of course they are always very cautions of saying, "yes you will be able to go tomorrow" or whatever, since I have been promised that before and then not seeing it happen is probably the worst feeling.

But as I have been sitting here in the hospital for the past few days watching everything on Netflix. I have decided to try to seriously add a few more things to the list of my health todos to see if I could stay out of here for longer! 

1. To have a Half&Half and/or Heavy Cream Hot Chocolate every day in order to add the extra pounds the doctors have asked me to gain for the last year... and maybe with Christmas coming I will experiment with Eggnog

2. Try to go to the Salt Caves a few more times, perhaps going every other week or every week for a month or two. Considering there have been many studies on it that shows in addition to my regular CF treatments they can help. I did go to one in Ridgefield, CT back in september and have been meaning to go back ever since but haven't had the chance. 

3. Also remember to take all my extra meds as I like to call them. My enzymes (digest my food), inhaled meds, albuterol, insulin are what I consider to be my life or death meds (not to be too morbid, but I wouldn't be here without my enzymes for one). But obviously my vitamins are very important, as are my antacid meds, so I just need to work them into my day to day schedule so I don't become forgetful about them again! 

4. Lastly, remind my self how amazing it feels to exercise. How I love to run. Listen to music, and clear my mind while doing so! 

Because even though sometimes I really can't avoid a hospitalization. Even when I do everything I am suppose to, I can always try to the best and hope the rest falls into place! 

I hope you all have a fantastic Tuesday and that this ugly weather we are having on the East Coast isn't everywhere!! 

Ai Weiwei on Alcatraz

I recently came back from a Trip from San Francisco, and while I was there I went to Alcatraz, which I have been to before, the first time I fell in love with it, I wanted to move on to the Rock, but this time I actually went to see Ai Weiwei's instillation piece that is in a couple of buildings and areas that aren't usually open to the public. Many of his pieces depicted the horrible nature of countries that can't see paste their very traditional belief system and how they have imprisoned or exiled people for stating what they believe, he him self wasn't even able to make it to his own show, since he is stuck in china. However horrible nature of the topics he was commenting on with his artwork it all was so beautiful and made you smile, much like "99 Luftballoons" song by Nena, which actually has a deeper meaning of being a protest song. But Nena's song, not only had an upbeat tune, but it was also in another language, leaving most of the US to think otherwise in the beginning. 

Two of Ai Weiwei's pieces at first glance looked like traditional Chinese art, but when you took a closer look you could see that was not the case, they had specific details or were placed in a way that provoked to think about them in a different way. For instance the Traditional Chinese Dragon Kites, are commenting on how they are being restricted while still having the idea of being able to move freely as most kites do, but this one is even more imprisoned, being stationed in an old prison. The Blossom, which is made up of porcelain  flowers reference the Chinese history of ceramic artwork and has two possible depictions either it could be referring to Chinas Hundred Flowers Campaign that took place in 1956 (allowed freedom and ideas to flow) or the idea of the inmates receiving flowers, as this instillation was situated in the old infirmary section of the prison. 

But my favorite piece was the Lego portraits of those 175 people who have been imprisoned or exiled from their own country, they were just so beautiful and intriguing to take something as simple and playful as legos and give them a purpose and a way to get across an idea. Each portrait has a description that went along with them, to give you an idea of what they have gone through and where they are located around the world! 

At the end of the Alcatraz tour you were able to send postcards to those people in Prison, which was awesome. I personally felt that some of them might not understand what your saying in english, so I just drew a few pictures, cause I think everyone would enjoy getting some mail and a drawing! However, now that I think of it a lot of them were writers, so they actually may know English pretty well, either way... I participated haha. 

Happy Tuesday!! 

Here's a throwback to pick you up midday! 

Shaking off the Clutter!

I am finally back to my blog, after a long un-planned break, with the many wedding adventures I took this summer to starting real estate classes, my mind has been elsewhere. But with the fall beginning to start I have begun making more Fruit heads, which 20% of each purchase will be going to Cystic Fibrosis Foundation!! I have gotten really pumped about some of the Fruit heads because I am using more intricate ribbons that are embroidered and fall specific knick knacks to make them more festive and exciting!! I have even incorporated some Swarovski Crystals to some of them to give them a shiny elegant edge.   

Also the studio my dad and I share is getting a clean out... as it was really just becoming a storage area, with zero room to do artwork! Which was really hurting my art production... but hopefully now with room to move around, my inspirations will begin flowing!  

New Fruit Heads 

The Cleaning has begun and is Already looking better!! 

Before 

Before 

Lastly love this song and it's message... shake it off. 

For the CF Stuff, Life Stress and "haters gonna hate" 

CF Walk

Last Sunday we had a fabulous turn out for The Maddie Mockingbirds at the New Canaan Great strides walk... I guess word got around that it was going to be the best party ever, or maybe it was just such a beautiful day they decided to walk for a great cause. Either way I enjoyed seeing so many family and friends coming together for it! Even though I had a quick exit before the walk even started. I was feeling to very exhausted, sick and run down. Not to mention I also kept coughing as if I was going to cough up a lung. So I went home to rest and get rid of my fevers only to go into the hospital a day later and realize I have the Flu... THE Evil Flu. But I have been doing better since starting Tamaflu, and hopefully will continue!! 

Thank you to all of those that came and especially to all of those who donated!! As a

 whole Maddie Mockingbirds Raised $11,240 with all of the extra donations aside from the website donations! They were all so amazing and generous and will be going to the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation to work towards a cure! 

The Whole Crew

Ohio Wesleyan Friends (OWU)

Friends from around Town!!