Still Kickin'

 I spoke to soon, I was healthy and out of the hospital for all of about a week. I have now been in the hospital for another week, with another virus, although now feeling better, and hoping to leave fairly soon (aka today), it has been a very frustrating experience. This will have be my sixth hospitalization since April of this year. Usually the most I am hospitalized in one year is 4 times. And that has even been rare. 

And with being sick yet again, I have felt too tired to do any artwork, so that has yet again been put on hold, not that I was really even able to pick it up within the two weeks I was home. The first week I was finishing IV's and by the second week I felt sick again. I have decided to move back east, at least for now. In able to save up more money while actually getting better and staying well. I have never had my CF control my life so much, and in the end I don't think it is really controlling it, it is just telling me to slow down and BREATHE, which is what I aim to do.  

The last time I was in the hospital I decided to sign up to be a part of the SketchBook Project. It is a great project where you can sign up to receive a sketchbook, draw your heart out all over the pages and then return it and it will be within a collection a tons of other books from other artists around the world into a library. The books can then go on tour around different areas of the united states. I thought the whole Idea was super awesome. And since I haven't been able to get to my studio and do my bigger pieces, this will be a great way to let my hands move and just keep my brain sane in the hospital. 

Here are some of the drawing so far...  

Disco Ball, Despite a Slight Bump

I always have been very skeptical when I am super excited for something, because usually it ends up not happening. But that doesn't stop be from thinking about it… it's what gets me going 

For instance, I was sooooo excited for Halloween, I thought about my costume at least a month before if not more. I dreamed about twirling (Hey Twirling Clare) about as a Disco Ball, shinning bright for the whole world to see (aka the dance floor at a bar or house party). Nevertheless the week before I started having fevers and so I went down to Stanford for a CF appointment that I had made because of the fevers, more productive cough, and fatigue. 

I was then admitted, I was going to spend one of my favorite holidays in the hospital, just like last year I spent Thanksgiving in the hospital. The funny thing is, 

is that last year I was also super excited for Thanksgiving, because everyone

 was going to be home, so I could not wait to reminisce with friends, gossip, 
and be social the night before Thanksgiving. Seeing as I was still home

 with my parents dying of the post grad reality of real life. 

But with both of these instances I had to make the best of it, cause other wise you will go insane, and I have to say that now that I have experienced Halloween in the hospital I would like to go back for it (just to visit, not to stay), it felt almost like Hogwarts to me because some people were all dressed up like a regular nurse in scrubs, but then would have peacock feathers on or pirates hat, as if they were some kind of magical being that was just working in the hospital. And there was actually someone walking around in a full super man costume…. seriously saving lives. 

I ended up having a number of visitors which made the day wonderful, any time you have any visitor in the hospital, it helps. They brought my costume so I was able to light up Stanford Hospital, or at least my room and part of the court yard... 

Now I am now well, post sinus surgery, and IV antibotics and I am ready to get back into the swing of things. However this time I truly hope that I will be able to stay well for the next holiday and all the art and life events in between. 

Much Love

Love this song, really pumps me up... Enjoy!